Birthday Girl!!! Six years old!!!
After school at Nana's house.
About our adoption.... Mark and I saw this little boy who was a year old and tried to get him. He suffered from malnutrition and was only 14.5 pounds. I really thought we would get him. He was on a waiting list ready to be adopted so we put our name in the hat to be picked. Well, today we find out that another family was picked for him. When I got the email from our social worker I started to cry. I am working with Mark jumping (UPS- to make extra money for travel). Mark looked at me and he knew that he wasn't going to be ours. I am sad that we didn't get him, but there must be another child out there for us. I am so tired of the roller coaster of adoption. All the ups and downs. I wanted to scream at God and say why did you let me think we might get him? How much more can one person take? I wanted to just cry out loud to God and ask Why? Then I stopped and listened and said to myself why not me? I am not exempt from being hurt and there must be a reason why we didn't get him. I know God has a plan for us and it will be great when it is fulfilled. Shortly after I came to understand this; I received an email from someone that has adopted a child with malnutrition and she said that the little boy might have some problems that would be hard to deal with. I could feel God's hands on me. I could see Him saying I am not trying to hurt you, but keep you from harm.
I thank you Lord for everything.
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